Monday, October 04, 2010

I'd Prefer To Be Remembered As A Smiling Face, Not This Fucking Wreck Thats Taken It's Place

I feel like such a fraud.

I have all these grown-up responsibilities. I pay taxes. I'm in a union. I book hotel rooms. I pay rent.

But inside, I still feel exactly the same as I did when I was fifteen. I love Twilight. I waste hours on video games. I get nervous when I ask for an alcoholic beverage (I know, right?). I stay up too late.

Every step I take, I feel as though I'm lying to everyone. Like a little girl dressed up in my big sister's clothes. And I guess that's the problem, I'm doing all the things I'm supposed to. I'm putting on a good show. I just don't believe it myself.

Am I the only person that feels this way?

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